Man the word Pastor Sarah gave Sunday was a word for me because I know oh so well how it is for Purpose to chase you down in that deserted place.
I wanted to be invisible.
I did not want to talk to anyone, look at anyone, go anywhere, exist on social media…. I just wanted to be alone, but God had other plans. See, for me to receive my miracle, I had to leave that deserted place. My spirit felt deserted, but God’s love, words, thoughts, purpose, it all chased me down. He gave me wisdom and wordsss that I was chosen to share. Through that process, I got my miracle.
But now that I have my miracle, I just want to be invisible again.
“Can I just retreat back?.. You don’t need to know my life.. My time is a privilege, why should I share it with the world?…I just don’t want to be bothered”
Honestly I couldn’t understand where all these thoughts were coming from, but all I knew was I wanted to be invisible.
Those thoughts tried to consume me, but once again purpose chased me down. I woke up the next morning with tears running down my face and this word in my heart – knowing more than ever that it’s full of Purpose.
God had worked a miracle in me, but it was never just for me.
“There’s levels to this miracle…. it may look unnecessary on the outside, but your unnecessary miracle is necessary for other people to see” – Sarah Jakes Roberts
Though I had gotten my needed miracle, God was and is still working miracles. And to whomever the miracle is for, I will not be invisible. However, they will see more than just me in the pictures and in the words… They will see me and the work God is doing in me. They will see me and God’s loves that permeates through me. They will see me and a greater Purpose.
You would think because of that I no longer want to be invisible, but no I still do….
I want to be invisible.
I alone-I want to be invisible, but I – attached to purpose, I want you to see.
